Expectation (기대)

Kangsoo Chun  

"Lord, what you've planned through us.

What made you praise with your poor lips.

Lord, what you've planned through us.

I'm looking forward to what you're going to do."

Every time I post a video, every time I publish a music book, I lack this and that and make another mistake. Do this, do that, people's demands are increasing. Every time I do that, I think, "Why am I so lacking?"

But this praise is so comforting.

One day, my best friend from high school told me.

When I say, "I've got to do this," and I'm gonna do it.

When I say, "I need to get a job," I get a job soon.

When I say, "I have to get married." I get married soon.

When I say, "I have to go to graduate school," I am going to graduate school soon.

She said "Looking at you, I think there's a real God.”

I didn't expect this from my friend, a devout Buddhist, to hear this.

And I didn't know that the guy who's been watching me closely for a long time would say this.

Because for me, there was nothing easy about that process, and it was something I prayed for and prepared for a long time. In other people's eyes, even a close friend like this, my life seems to be all right.

I feel, "Why is my life so hard?"

"Why is it so hard?" "Why isn't it working?" "Is there anything I can do?"

I remember crying and praying all the time.

Psalms 126:6

"He who cries and goes out to sow will surely return with his grain hem with joy."

I only see seeds, and my friend must be looking at grain.

It's been three years since I started YouTube.

If you've heard what I said, "I'm going to have to do YouTube," it's probably the same reaction as my friend. "I heard you're on YouTube, and now you have 20,000 subscribers."

While I was working hard on my YouTube video, I started with "Should I really do this?" 

After I started, I thought, "Should I do this?" every day after day.

It's the same when I publish a music book.

When I say, "I'm going to publish a music book," it looks like it's coming out soon, right? It was really hard for me. I think my hidden gray hair came out since then.

I still have some prayer topics like homework that can't be solved. However, I want to look forward to seeing grain, not just seeds.

Do the Heaven accompanists have the same thing? 

Psalm 18:29

"I have entrusted the Lord to run for the enemy, and I have turned to my God, and I have gone beyond the wall."

I've been thinking about the experience of jumping over the wall, and I've been through it, and I've been comforting. 

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I'm looking forward to what you're going to do.

Look forward to what you're gonna do through us.

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Be the accompanists who enjoy heaven again today~