Out of the Will (천부여 의지 없어서) - C.Wesley & W.Shield

Last August, I worked out thinking about learning Pilates while lying on a soft sofa to strengthen my muscles. Maybe the soft sofa was the source of the fire. Maybe it's because I overdoed Pilates after 2 months off. I have a backache the next day. From the next day on, my entire left leg hurts.

Waist-hip-hip-thigh-calf-leg-to the ankle. The soles of my feet are numb... Oh, my God. How could the pain be this bad?

After a few days of patience, I felt like I had a serious problem, so I got acupuncture and chuna therapy, but it didn't make any difference. I got a back injection and got a manual treatment because I thought it was a single shot. It's a disk. Now it's very hard to sit down for a while even though I keep lying down. I almost ran out during Sunday worship. One hour of worship is so hard. I think I did a good job to endure. The next week, I sat at the very back. Of course it hurts to stand there, but... It's worse to stay sick for a long time. 

Well, the good thing is... my husband is working from home, so he cooks, does laundry, and cleans. So I'm playing a real princess. All I have to do is lie down, but I keep thinking about what to do, and I have a lot of plans. I'm sorry for refusing to meet people, and I'm upset just thinking about the Heaven Piano. I've been working too hard, so I'd like to think of it as God's break time and make myself at home.

I don't think the Heaven Piano has been resting for two months. How did I keep lying down? All the praises that have been uploading since I was sick are pre-released in the 5th album.. It's already done, so I'm just uploading it. I'm lying down and writing this.

I've been wondering if I should upload one video a week or not, so I wondered why...?

I said, "My back hurts." I thought I should be more specific so that you can understand and pray for me more, so I'm telling you what I've been up to lately. What's interesting is that every time I pray for you, you get better. 

So you're gonna pray for me, right?

I don't want to lie down anymore...

I want to make videos, make music books, and do many other things that I plan to do...

Please pray that the pain will go away and that I can sit down and concentrate on works.